It's a mess up there. Oh I love, oh I love, oh I love, oh I love what you do to my heart. It's the best, oh yeah. - The Cure.

I am in heaven, I truly am. I feel like I have somehow fallen into a beautiful bubble of bliss. I believe this is that 'happiness' thing I hear everyone talking about. Happiness, is indeed, a wonderful drug.

I swear I could float away in this bubble of bliss, forever listening to Exploding Head Syndrome (Single Remix by 65 Days of Static) by The Cure. Each part of my favourite songs by The Cure have been expertly remixed and re-crafted into one beautiful, long song. I love all twenty-one minutes and twenty-seven seconds of it. It's the most amazing thing to ever get injected into my ears. It makes me just want to sit with my eyes closed and headphones on forever, with this singular song on repeat. It's just...pure audible beauty.

However, this song is not the only reason why I am in such a state of bliss. It would appear that hell has frozen over, and I have unlocked the door to a parallel universe. A universe of beauty and love, where birthdays can be wonderful, magical, and enjoyable events.

Yes, that's right ladies and gentlemen, I have celebrated my birthday....and LOVED it! You see, normally I celebrate my birthday with great trepidation. Something ALWAYS goes wrong, and someway or another it always sucks. I kept telling myself that this year would be the last year I'd celebrate it, considering my track record for craptacular birthdays.

So, as of today, I am 22 years old. And last night was one hell of a celebration of youth. Calling it a 'Celebration of Youth', is, of course, my 'nice' way of labelling that....explosion of a party I honestly could not have wished for a better time. Never have I ever had a more excellent time celebrating my birthday I really can't thank everyone enough for coming. Having the sheer joy of everyone's company for this celebration really meant the world to me. I really do love all of my friends, and I'm so glad I could share so many amazing moments with you I honestly can not express adequately how much I love you all, and appreciate you.

It was honestly, the most amazing, relaxing, freeing party I have ever experienced. I'm totally in love with you all now for this

I just can't believe how much I could enjoy other people's company. It's just...It's blowing my mind. You have no idea. Honestly, what the fuck was I doing this entire year instead of spending it with you wonderful people?! I must have been out of my mind. Absolutely out of my mind. I swear, I must've spent this past year socially slumming it or something. I just love that I can hang out with you all...for hours. SO many, many, many glorious hours. And it's not just this party, it's any other time too. Like how we sometimes plan for lunch, and lunch turns into dinner, etc -I love that! It's beautiful! It's so amazing to not have any restrictions - to have the freedom to do as we please without someone having to go home early or something.

And as seedy as we all felt this morning, I loved walking up to the Bakery to get breakfast with you all. And I loved going down to the beach for lunch.

I know I keep saying it, but everything was just...beautiful! Wonderful! It was....perfect.

I feel so blessed to be surrounded by so many amazing people.


For the first time in such a long time, I went to sleep with a smile on my face - in fact, I went to bed giggling. And I woke up in the same state. It was amazing!


Oh I love, oh I love, oh I love.... my friends

All of this amazing...amazingness is making me look forward to the year to come. My hopes, are indeed building to quite a great height.

Ladies and Gentlemen, I bring you a tale. A tale of a wonderful legend. They say if you go to Brisbane's King George Square on a Sunday night and pet, rub, or stroke a certain lion statue, a magical creature shall appear. We all thought this was bullshit. But we are LIVING PROOF that this urban legend is true! We have our photographic evidence of this magical creature published online somewhere. You'll just have to look harder than usual to find it.

Sure, we all sat around the lion statue, stroking it, making jokes about bestiality, and other things that I care not to put into print. Within moments, seemingly out of nowhere, Aslan Dan the Kinky Magic Man appeared!

We had a blast with this creature. This magical being turned out to be a travelling magician from Germany. For whatever reason, he wanted to show us magic tricks. We were hesitant at first, we thought it was a scam. But oh, how wrong we were! We were delighted, dazzled, and amazed by this creature of magic. He was quite talented with a deck of cards. So rare is this pure, awesome entertainment these days.
....and where does the 'kinky' in his title come from? Test the urban legend for yourself and find out


....But really it's just because he approached us while we were in the middle of inappropriate conversations and jokes. And, in all honesty, WE put the kinky into his title, ahaha.

Footnote to this urban legend: If he asks you to pick a card, put it between your breasts. It does wonders for the magic.

Madness, madness, madness!
With all this madness one could easily assume it were a Monday... But fear not, we still have quite a few hours up our sleeves before that dreaded beast is reborn in the traditional weekly cycle.

Uploads, uploads, uploads!
Obviously, I have been uploading things again. I was going through my cosplay folder the other night - trying to get things sorted for the new cosplay year. In doing so, I came across many of my old cosplay photos - many from when I was still in High School~! (Old Cait is old D: )
At the same time, I was also cleaning up and organising my dA account, and in doing that I realised that my gallery was severely lacking. So I went on a little bit of an uploading spree. Sorry for the upload-spam I'll give everyone a day or so break before I go uploading any more

ALSO, A BIG, HUGE, AMAZING THANK-YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS VIEWED, COMMENTED, AND FAVE'D MY RECENT SUBMISSIONS. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT, YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!

Cosplay, cosplay, cosplay!
In searching through all of my old cosplay photos, I seemed to have rekindled my love for cosplay - something I thought I was losing...or had already lost, even. For quite a few years now, most of my cosplays have been lacking. I have been producing, quite honestly, shit. Simple crap that is far below my standards. Through re-exploring my old Siren cosplay, I have realised that I can create something better, something...good.

I've since started sorting out my 2010 cosplay list, and organising what I'm going to do when. I'm completely booked (kind of), for Supanova Brisbane.

Brisnova
Friday: I'm a little torn. But I'm leaning towards doing BLIND MAG from REPO! The Genetic Opera. Simply because I've been wanting to cosplay her for the past year, and I'd like to get her out of the way before a giant wave of fandom sweeps through and irritating fanboys/girls ruin it. (Sorry, but rabid fans of something are enough to turn anyone off anything...)
If anyone wants to do Repo! with me, they can. But atm, it's just me.

Saturday: It's a secret

Sunday: Something WoW related, because the VA for Illidan from the WoW: BC trailer is going to be therrreeeee~ I think I'll pass out if I hear him say "You are not prepared!" in person

Gencon Oz
I'm not sure what days I'm doing, or exactly which cosplays I'm doing yet. But I do know I'm going to be part of a rad duo with and we're going to be hella awesome I'm pretty excited about it

I'm also thinking about FINALLY doing my PSO cosplay. I've been wanting to do this cosplay since I was 14 or so (in other words; a VERY, VERY, VERY long time, ahaha. *cough*nineyears*cough*) So while I'm on a cosplay high, and ready to get back in the game, I figure there's no better time to get that cosplay started!
However, I'm having a hard time finding screenshots, and other images from game play. I used to have a lot of screenshots, but due to an unfortunate incident I won't speak of again, I don't have them anymore. And it's so very hard to find any pictures of the FOnewearl in the black dress from the Dreamcast Version of PSO (this is the *only* SS I've managed to find [link]) Don't suppose anyone has any screenshots out there, at all? Or does anyone know someone who may have any? Or does anyone know of a good online resource for PSO screenshots? Heck, I'd settle for cruddy fan art, even D:
I'm so determined to do this cosplay, it's not funny. I loved PSO and my FOnewearl so much that I could have redefined "online gaming addiction", heh. This game taught me how to kick ass with a controller in one hand, and follow/participate in a full-on, in-depth conversation with a keyboard with my other hand. (sad, but oh-so-very true >_> ...this also explains why I have sickenly pale skin in all photos that I'm in from around that time )

Anyway, other than those two cosplays, I have no idea what else I'll be doing for Gencon.


Art, art, art!
I found the long-lost member of my art supply family! Yay! I knew I'd eventually find it I'll definitely be sketching some things up soon


End, end, end!
Good-bye

I thought I'd update, since the previous journal's contents has been dealt with. Out with the old, in with the new!

Be fascinating! Save an insomniac!
Once again, I type out yet another journal in a desperate attempt to cure my insomnia. ... or it's at least a desperate attempt to get me to do something other than staring at my ceiling. Insomnia really is a terrible thing - and I mean real insomnia, not that self-inflicted bullshit that so many people "suffer" from. Me? Harshly judge anyone? NEVER! *rolls eyes*. But seriously, I really can't stand people that mislabel things. Unfortunately, I've let the 'crazy' out one too many times in recent journals, so I won't spiral down into a rant about it, I'm sure by now many of you know how I feel about such things anyway. *cough*
Moving right along....

I really need to go out clubbing, I haven't been in aaaaaaaaaages, and things keep coming up to prevent me from going out and clubbing my heart out I want to dress up, dance my heart out, and have a red-hot injection of industrial/EBM into my bloodstream.

Ooooh, that reminds me! I bought my new boots (finally!), they're soooo beautiful! when they first arrived in the mail, I just wanted to lick them. They're sooo shiny and delicious looking! This is just another reason why I should go out clubbing - I need to further 'break them in' , and a night of clubbing would surely do it! THIS IS WHY THEY'RE AWESOME: [link] [link] [link] those boots! They're super comfortable, and look rad with everything


Oh dear, I've been distracted. I meant to ramble on after that about how awful I feel about my final year of uni, and how stressful it is, trying to find work placement. But it would appear that I've been distracted by something, and I no longer feel like absolute crap. So in order to maintain this high, I won't dwell on such a depressing matter.

I have just been reading through this and LOLing pretty hard: [link] It's proof that WoW makes everyone happy

Cosplay-wise
Hoping to get started on cosplays for 2010 soon No real hints as to what I'm doing yet

Art-wise
Nothing yet. Still missing a crucial member of my art-supplies team Why don't I buy a new one? BECAUSE I DON'T WANT A NEW ONE, THAT'S WHY! And what is this 'one'? Wouldn't you like to know Hopefully I find it soon...



Other-stuff-wise
....I have used the emoticon too much in this journal entry. Seriously

Ok, since I don't have the magical powers to make a poll, I'm doing this in a journal, so PLLLEEEAAASSSSEEE give me some feedback (if the following is at all of interest to you).

Ok, so my Birthday is on the 21st of December. BUT, there are about a bajillion OTHER things going on with everyone else around that time (Thanks for stealing my thunder, Jesus.) Not to mention, every time I try to celebrate my birthday around that time, it always fails. (Although I'm already getting a bad feeling about my up-coming birthday...)
Maybe I should take the hint already? Maybe my birthday just isn't worth celebrating =/ /endemotrash.

Moving on...

So, I've come up with three solutions:

1. Celebrate it after christmas, but before New Years.

Basically, at some point in the gap between Xmas and NYE, I'd have a party, and it could be an Xmas Catch-up and a birthday shindig.

OR


2. Celebrate it *on* NYE.
This could give people enough time to get over the Jesus crap, and clear some space, because most people are usually free on NYE anyway. So I could kill two birds with one stone. And either have a day-time party at my place and then we can take it to the town in the evening, OR, could just have a night-time shindig at my place.


OR
3. Celebrate it on the 20th (A SUNDAY).
I know Sundays are awkward, but it's closer to my real birthday (although potentially covered in doom + fail. But I'm willing to take a stand and FIGHT IT, GOD DAMNIT!)



Which one works best for everyone? Or does anyone have a better idea? ...Or should I just give up?

Plleeeeaaase give me *some* feedback (even if it is negative). I would like to do *something* for my birthday at some point.